Apart

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Oh man, blogger has some problem, i cant do my pictures thingy with the post. I realised how everyone is increasingly using pictures to express their thoughts nowadays you know, like everyone using tumblr or something and mmm maybe the increasing popularity of the DSLRs? Perhaps people are starting to appreciate pictures more :D i should get one for myself soon man, so fun go round snapping stuff.

Been one week since i came back from camp, for the past 5 days of school i think i havent really recovered from the lack of sleep during the camp. I dont even bother to bring my earphones to school, knowing that i'll probably fall asleep on the mrt and bus, which i really do. Today nearly overshot outram park station lor >_> i chionged out when the door was beeping lol.

Ahah camp was alright, you get to see nicholas' black and pekcek face after like mm 10 years? >) To me this year's training emphasis was more on their physical side rather than their mental side, thought i'll prefer the mental training, cos actually training physically is rather easy. Mass gym sessions and youre done. The camp was rather well organised you know, except for the fact about being overcautious and not willing to take chances lol. I remember what Sunny taught me during ATC man, dare to do lol, and for all who were there on campfire night, we overdared :X Anyways i duno, its like this is the only camp i attended in so many years, including my cadet life, that the cadets are perhaps climbing over the heads of the NCOs too much :O oh well, lets just hope they'll all improve in time to come.

Advance party was woooooo, tiring man. Everyone put in their effort to ensure a decent set of rope obstacles could be set up, hope the participants appreciated it, i mean back then i enjoyed my rope obstacles lol, we had those advanced one leh, forgot what its called, the criss cross thingy, bet many people have never seen it before lol. Its in the suicide/switch side window era, pretty much lost when the fitness corner was under construction :O But thats only a year ago anyway.

Bam i did the part above like 3-4 days ago, was too tired to continue lol. So my mind is empty about what i should type now. Think i'll just continue as if its a new post.

Open House was cool, seems that the number of people attending are decreasing from year to year. Actually i dont really get the point of open house la, its like every school puts up some nicenice great environment, in the end when the kids enter the school it turns out to be something really different. Not that im saying nanhua is bad of course :D Performances were normal, but the usual 'sehness' definitely wasnt there as compared to previous years.

This open house performance thingy really drove me to want NHNP to put up some imba unstoppable godlike incredible performance for cca extravaganza. Us not putting up a performance has definitely started a few tongues wagging, and how i wish i could just shut those people up man. i cant be there doing the performance, cos my time is over, so i hope that all my juniors would put in their all to put up a great performance, as will i give my all to train them up for the performances. Its time to put my fancy drills thinking to good use. Fiona has some tricks up her sleeve too, back then 4 years ago her batch did some awesomesauce performance, actually it was like the last so called great performance in my mind la. The performance in subsequent years werent so cool :P

I've got so many things to pen/type down but i just cant really organise them properly in my mind, so to hell with it, next time when i think about it i'll blog it again lol. Its NPCC break, time to do some homeworky.

notes of a tragedy
9:43 PM

Monday, November 23, 2009

Its a monumental day because.....................................................

Bryan created facebook! >D

notes of a tragedy
10:29 PM

Friday, November 13, 2009

Nov 13, Friday.

1 year ago, it was like the end of my O lvls. This year, i was having guitar from 9-12. Note the underline lol Back then i went queensway with nich,yuxuan,jiahao and yonglak, while kjw went on to have the time of his life hehehe. Now, im stuck at home staring at my flickering-every-few-seconds lappy screen -.-

Oh well, YOU HAVE TO WATCH THIS VIDEO. YOU DONT WATCH YOURE MISSING OUT THE GOOD THINGS IN LIFE (Y)

Some say it's not over ‘till it’s over
Guess this is really over now
There's something I gotta say before I let you go
Listen

When you have a fight with him
Sometimes you cry
And feel sad and blue
I become hopeful
My heart aches secretly
Then just a hint of your smile
Can make feel fine again
To keep you from figuring out how I feel about you
Coz then we would drift apart
I hold my breath, bite my lips
Oh, please leave him and come to me

Baby, please don’t take his hand
Coz you should be my lady
I've been waiting for you for so long
Please look at me now

When the music starts
You will vow to spend
The rest of your life with him
How I prayed every night
This day would never come

The wedding dress you're wearing
It's not me (next to you)
Oh, the wedding dress you’re wearing, oh, no

You never knew how I felt about you
And I hated you so
Sometimes I wished you would be unhappy

Now I have no more tears left to cry
When I’m by myself I talk to you like you're here
I’ve felt so restless every night
Maybe I’ve known all along this would happen
I close my eyes and dream an endless dream
Please leave him and come to me

Baby, don’t take his hand when he comes to you
Coz you should be my lady
I've been waiting for you for so long
Look at me now

When the music starts
You will vow to spend
The rest of your life with him
How I prayed every night
This day would never come

The wedding dress you're wearing
It's not me (next to you)
Oh, the wedding dress you’re wearing, oh, no

Please be happy with him
So that I can forget you
Please forget how miserable I looked
It's going to be unbearably hard for me
For a long while to come

notes of a tragedy
7:51 PM

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Yesssss Monday is OP!!! Finally oral presentation is here, after that PW is over!

PW would be ALL OVER. WOOOO.

Which means no more slack timetables la, sian. ): I dont know what to blog about, life's been so boring with OP about. My school stupidly has timetable during OP prep period. We come to school at 8, take attendance and then its like what, free time table the whole day -.- There was even this day i went back at 10+.Lame. Other schools have their like school days off already, they just prepare on their own time. Everyone comes to school just for attendance, the dumb thing is that they've already issued our term 4 report cards already ._.

Was checkin my holiday schedule and mymy it sure is packed. woooooo. at least it wont be a period of long boring holidays like the post o levels -.-

Would blog again when i got more interesting stuff going on in my life. >)

notes of a tragedy
9:32 PM

Monday, October 26, 2009

Out.Burst.Its been long, like 9 or 11 months? Hi really-pissed Bryan. At least thats good news, means i wont be seeing him for quite awhile after i cool down.

Its my fault for my rage, not yours, dont worry.

Boomz.

Perhaps i just need to shoot a few hoops, take a break from everything else, NPCC, studies, holiday homework, PW, proposal vetting.........

notes of a tragedy
9:27 PM

Sunday, October 25, 2009

I've just been reminded of the dire situation that Singapore is in.

Not about the water shortage problem im doing for my project work, but instead of how can we place our future government in the hands of the current group of youths, probably me included.

Newspapers and all keep raising the matters of the youths becoming more and more disorgansed in mentality and 'uncouth' even though they are supposedly becoming smarter. Maybe cos of the deeper and more difficult topics being taught to the lower levels of education, but somehow i find that allowing kids to use calculator in primary school would somehow make them more stupid lol.

No arguments to back my claim ( oh no gp fail ) but i guess we can all see it happening more or less. But who's fault is it anyway, parents? Probably, i think all those people like parents, student leaders or those with 'power' are becoming more and more lenient with their underlings, and the problem of these underlings climbing over the top of these leaders head has caused an even more terrible problem of a permanent change in mentality to future generations,somehow :O Its like a snowball effect you know, this generation A releases its hold a little on the next generation B, when its time for generation B to run the show, generation B releases a little on generation C, and it keeps stacking until control becomes total release.

We could probably blame the world for improving so much you know. For example, last time back in those post world war days where everything was like under shortage, even teens treasued water and stuff. Of course, not anymore. Back then teens werent the ones fighting, it was the adults who rioted here and there for a whole variety of reasons. Life was simple without conflict cos everything was really simple man. No blogs to scold each other, family and personal values were still strong, tolerance was probably stressed upon by parents since they were living in the sensitive period where fights between various groups of people were easily started. Man, i think its not happening only to our Singapore, i have this feeling that this is a global phenomenon, maybe im wrong, dont know much about other countries cos im not staying overseas duh. Of course, we cant say that the future generations would definitely leave a stigma on mankind's history, maybe they'll invent some 1337 thingy to allow us to really have space travel you know, like REAL space travel where normal civilians like us can board some random space ship and go around maybe the earth-moon orbit? lol, not that its not available now but very expensive. Lets just all pray that the lion city would not become some other old dirty,stray cat in the streets in future.

On a sidenote, i've not talked about my final exam results. Bow down to the presence of greatness, a slacker like me got 64/80 rank points woooo, 63.75 if you wanna be exact. A BBDCB secured me a place for promotion to J2, with a B grade for econs, with a score being the top 4% of the cohort who took H1 economics as a subject. WAHAHAHAHA of course i cant get cocky and all. D for physics was like duh, really tired of doing badly for physics over and over again man, im waiting for the day where i can go back nanhua and break the news to mr wee that i got an A for physics lolol. Of course, my hopes at the start of the year for taking kickass H3 physics were dashed, i mean they were sort of 'dashed' like during the mid 2nd quarter of the year :X H3 physics is difficult, but its definitely much more fun than H2 physics can -.- A person like me goes for whatever is fun wahahaha, within limits that is. C for GP is >_>, A levels must get A wooooo. i didnt see my percentile for GP though, but its probably in the 90+ range too muah hahaha. At least i hope so, but i shouldnt be too happy about it though, i think SA's GP is of a lower standard as compared to other schools? Duno. Oh yeah, and if i were to include my higher mother tongue score into my overall score, it would pull my final grade down instead of pushing it up. How wonderful -.- All juniors who happen to be at my blog reading this post for whatever reason, HIGHER MOTHER TONGUE (CHINESE) MUST GET AS HIGH AS POSSIBLE, BUT MUST DEFINITELY PASSSSSSSSSSSSS.

Oh yeeeeah, tennis later. >) man i suddenly feel like taking some hiphop lessons during the holidays lol

notes of a tragedy
4:48 PM

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Met a whole group of NHHS chinese teacher while dinnering with chowler after tennis. Benny told me foo fighter's gonna be replaced by CTSS principal.

D:

notes of a tragedy
11:44 AM

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Bryan hasnt been blogging for more than a week :O

Man i have been stressing up a lot for the past few days actually. Not because of results, comon 35 rank points how to not get man, its bryan.

I realised how boring or how terrible life is, although they say having lived itself is a bliss. You sleep in the night, wake up all fresh for the new day, head over to school, return home, and the cycle just carries on infinitely, until you start working that is. Then, sub 'work' into 'head over to school' and solve the equation.

And then you get to face all the funny people in life. Thats so subjective, maybe im funny/weird to others. Gladys and Est were like discussing how irritated with people who kept bugging their teach' for their results and stuff. Maybe i heard wrongly, i was so sleepy this morning, cos of yesterday's tennis hoho. Anyway, why do students keep bother to keep bugging their teachers for the results, thats like sooooo i duno, immature? Imagine if our kids grow up next time, keeping this same mentality. When theres like, voting for the next president or whatever, citizens bug the government. Thats like damn retarded -.- Dunch kn0w laz, its like whatever is coming will still come in the end right, like my gp teacher say if we all studied harder, none of us would be worried. If i get retained ( oh no ), i only have myself to blame right?

Somehow, the recent things i did made me realise some things myself. I really abhor/detest/hate/loathe/dislike/cant stand who arent true to theirselves. I know we are all pressured by our friends or society to change. Get real, who doesnt want to fit in,ultimately? There are some wuss-es out there who copy and mimic so many things from different people and stuff they become like errr Singapore, a rojak of everything. I guess its hard for all of us to be who we are cos we're afraid people will shun us away and stuff, no kidding, sometimes i really feel that way man. But as much as i can would always always try to stay as Bryan as possible. Not the Bryan that says 'strength,virtue' or whatever whoopadingdongs in the name dictionary, but the Bryan that 'shouts ME!' BOOMZ. I know people who really are themselves, or at least allows me to perceive that they're themselves, they may not definitely be the most likable bunch of people in the whole wide world, but they definitely have my respect for being original. 2 thumbs up for originality.

I still have so much to say, but I really dont have the mood to type it all here, its just yet another rant that life is life. Life is a word by itself man, you cant match up anyword to be on the same level as it.

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to

Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes

Tomorrow releasing all results, lai ba >:0 i dont think that it'll be that pain as failing HCL. Thats like the failest fail i ever had in my whole life -.-

notes of a tragedy
9:14 PM

Monday, October 05, 2009

Thought i'll post this for those who havent seen any of my classmates before. Ta-dah, 80% of Bryan Ho's class 09S06.

Last week was really a very very spectacular 2 days for me after the promos. The first and major thing that happened, ok possibly the only thing that happened was the interhouse games. You're looking at the tchoukball champion's blog, thanks, MUAH AHAHAHA. im tchoukball pro, who want form private team can tell me >)

But..... the highlight was really definitely the basketball interhouse lol. I was like 1337 imba accurate with 4 out of 6 three pointers in the first game. We were actually losing but we won in the end lol. damn funny. The other team has 2 canoeists, so they'll be unquestionably huge with one basketball retainee. Thought we'll get thrashed real bad but we won. hohoho. somemore the first shot was like a desperate attempt to beat the shot clock from around 3 steps from the 3 point line la. damn joke. Somehow we managed to advanced to 3rd and 4th placing, against joeshualimzhejie's team. oh yeah, it was his birthday too, on children's day lol. we were never winning in any of the quarters, but in the 2nd quarter i made one shot which levelled our score. woohoo. 3 pointers for the win lol. With 3 seconds to go, i fired a fumbling desperate 3 point shot WHICH SCORED AGAIN. damn funny, 3 pointers are supposedly my worst shooting spots, maybe kjw's spirit was with me that day lol. the best thing of all, we finally levelled. Like, wooohoooo, it was like a tv show man, then 3 seconds to go, the guy who i was supposed to block suddenly made a semi v-cut against me, which left him open and he scored lol. BUTBUTBUT, there were some serious discrepancies, like the 3s really seemed too long, in the end it really was 4.5 seconds, but the referee still allowed the goal. haizpo, nvm deep in my heart i won. muah ha ha ha.

Friday was mooncake/mid autumn festival. Funfunfun with timotheus,cherngyew, kjw and chaohsien. Sorry 205 guys, needa hang around with them cos i sorta agreed with them to hang around, but no worries compared to them we have lots more outings so we'll see each other real soon. Anyway, nhnp set up a booth to raise funds for some causes, something fresh and cool, apart from the usual marshal duties. Marshal duties were half-u under mrs lee's directions, wonder why :O Had the usual crazy chat with kjw and arthur kok, pool after promos and pw, yeahhhh. Walked around here and there. Man, i have this feeling that one fine day nanhua wont be the place for me to go back anymore, like what happened to my primary school. Oh well, i think this happens to everyone as well. You say 'oh yay youre my bestie forever, i lurbz eu loadz muackz' but ask yourself truthfully, how long can this 'fairytale' forever friendship last?

Saturday was Ms Low's wedding, as in the picture above. Check it out, the groom is taller than me lol, 一山还有一山高. Random, anyway it was held in the Chapel Of Resurrection which is at SAS, which is at the secondary school side of the St Andrew's Village (Kampong), so a bit sian lol, but nonetheless interesting. Though im not a christian or whatsoever, i always find church weddings very interesting. To me, i find that religion is like a form of art or literature, dont wanna dwell too much into it in case i type something wrong unintentionally. Anyway, did the usual church wedding stuff, not like i havent attended one before. In fact, all my relatives are christians except me and my family lol, how interesting >) Anyway we didnt stay for the reception cos didnt wanna really cram up the place with the relatives and all so my classmates decided to go lunch and lan. Imagine that, 11 guys dressed in shirts/pants going into a lan shop, somemore the lanshop is like, ulu ulu one.

Check out mah pink shirtz, funky erh? hohoho >D

notes of a tragedy
8:40 PM

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Its the not the fall to death, but instead a leap into what i call freedom. Its the end of my promos, have yours ended? HAHA >D

5 papers were spread out evenly over a period of 5 days, with 2 days of weekend break squeezing in between the busy exam schedule. I shall make this post short and sweet hehe.

So after school i chionged home, then headed to marina square with mum. Walk here walk there, i wanted to buy this like damn cute gl monkey-brand-thingy shirt but mum said it was bo hua. sian lol. So got my stuffz then headed to great world city because zara's branch in marina square didnt have the size of a particular pair of jeans for me and they reserved me one for me in great world city. Had no clue how to go great world city from marina square with the shortest route possible so we took the only route i knew, which was to train down to somerset then to take a bus there. Im pretty sure theres a direct bus at suntec there la >:0 got my jeans, then headed home.

Played basketball after that, then there were like these 2 secondary 1 kids who were damn childish. This dude took this other guys's phone, which was errr, forgivable childish acts. Then this other guy for some reason really called the police, no kidding, just because the friend doesnt want to return the phone. wth, its like the police's hotline become some child counselling line -.-. Then after like 15 mins the police finally came, although the nearest police post, which is also the main one in my area, is just 4 mins walk from my house. Like really 4 mins walk lol. Its a super wasted trip made by the police, imo. Waste of manpower,fuel, and precious time >:0

I ish very the phear singkarpour's future ):

notes of a tragedy
8:25 PM

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

16 more hours, it'll start. Add another 144 and it'll be all over.

Its kinda funny how everyones counting down 10days, 12 days, 20 days even now, but mines so near that i have to use hours if not it'll be 0.666666666 recurring days more.

It's about time to buck up and get back my first ever test results with 3As, but i guess im never going to get back those same results. Back then, i was furious at myself at landing myself here, so i sorta diverted that fury into my studies and poof thats what I get. But now i sorta gave up hope already, somehow, i cant stop telling myself how much i've already screwed up half of my A levels. I know, there are definitely some people who wanted to enter SA and would probably be swearing and all at me, sure, but i expected myself to do better when i was still wearing a pure white uniform with stainless stell buttons. Like hey, i totally didnt expect my english, chem and especially bio to nail just an A2. Let alone, getting a D7 -.-

After the exams, mmm all my other friends havent even started promos yet, so there really isnt much to do except to wait for them to end before i can really hang out. and everyone has PW after the promos so i guess we wont be so free either. To add on, i received my holiday homework already, 6 GP J2 full papers, which means i have to do 6 compres,6 AQs, and 6 friggin essays. Booo.

Hiatus till after promos then! Oh i shouldnt use the word, cos somehow, some joker started hiatus and soon after almost every blogger used 'hiatus' until its like so.... urgh. What's up with that man, i bet no one knew that such a word until that somebody used can ._.

People ar people, originalityplz :D

notes of a tragedy
3:47 PM

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Live Messenger is damn jian la, force me to download the latest msn if not i wont be able to sign in >:0

notes of a tragedy
2:25 PM

Sunday, September 06, 2009

ahah! An occasional photo making its appearance on mah bloggaye. Been long since i blogged, not that i couldnt find the time, just that when i had the time, which is rather rare, i was tired D:

Been 2 weeks or so since i blogged lets just wrap up these 2 weeks with 3 major stuff, ATC/STC, teacher's day and edwin's farewell dinner.

My first ATC/STC wasnt such a pleasant experience. Newbie me was doing quite a lot, at least to me i was. Fellow nan hua CIs spent the whole of 2nd day from around 10-5 doing up the campfire structure. Apparently 2 fireballs instead of one puts on more than 100% extra workload lol. Anyway on top of PT,campfire, i was also assigned duties as a group IC. Meh, i knew it would be tiring but hopefully i hoped my group managed to sense my presence lol. Was pretty much mia most of the times and had an external CI to cover up, shame on me main group IC :X Debriefs to 1am was ok, i cant believe i didnt bathe on the 1st day la. So yucky lol, too tired. Besides, after debrief and before sleeping, went over to the sec2 side to kop supper lol. Saw 3 fellow saints, 1 of whom i swore i have never seen before in school o.o Realised the stuff im typing here arent really flowing smoothly with one another, trying to recall the fragments lost in my mind lol. Oh yeah and bumboat rides are fun man, i dont mind riding up and down riding up and down for like 4-5 trips. The wind blowing through one's hair, and making it messy though, is the bestest best ecstasy >) its like cycling down a hill at infinite miles per hour without crashing in the end. Campfire was er, ok. Not much to elaborate, but hopefully if we're in charge of campfire again next year, i wanna do some imba campfire so good it redefines campfire man. Oh ya and the sua ku me who have never slept on double decked beds before slept on the top deck. Dumb me had problems climing up/down ._. i had trouble climbing up cos i didnt wanna step on the bed below and dirty it and the ladder's like shaky. Its tough coming down cos i didnt wanna wake up the rest as im an early waker :D

Thats pretty much for STC, dont think i'll be forgetting it anytime soon.Teacher's day! i really really didnt wanna go to school cos i felt it was rather stupid, but it turned out RATHER ok. Personally i felt councillors' dance was comparable with dance society's dance leh, just that dance society's dance had some veh cute math teacher dancing to nobody. Oh yeah, before the concert there was this phail ACES day. sadded, when is moe going to scrap it :O nothing much during the concert, pretty much most of the time was wasted on giving out funny awards to teachers, e.g. energizer bunny award or somethin. Then NHSA went back to our alma mater in one big swarm but we didnt enter the school in one whole gang la, if not more fun lol. I pretty much spent most of the time playing basketball, paiseh teachers, but its not like i hardly see them anyway, i go back to NP regularly :D so yeah, but like i always say, its great to see your cohort coming back again, seeing familiar faces is always a comfortable feeling. After that dinnered with 205, then the following day went to yijo's house to play the awesomesauce rockband. wooo fun, perhaps i should persuade my mum to get one, just nice 4 players for my family lol.

Edwin's farewell dinner! Yay 45mins late, paiseh ar cos debrief was rather long :O Went over to vivo's dian xiao er for family feast set thingy. 15 people went with nich and yongtat missing. booo. Anyway dian xiao er is probably THE place if you wanna find the herb-iest food in Singapore. Its like the roast duck is so totally totally different from all the roast ducks i've eaten all my life. Sweet roask duck leh, chi guo ma? The soups also very very real, seems like lesser or negligible msg has been used. Either that or producers have gotten smarter and invented MSG that can fool my tastebuds. Ate till like almost 9, then headed over to Edwin's new house at The Botania for semi-serious discussion. Gave Edwin his farewell pressie,a very very nice man u jacket/cardigan as he calls it, i dont know too lol. Its really nice ok, im not a fan of any football clubs but i still find it nice.Anyway, The Botania is situated in some veh ulu place, almost away from civilisation. Couldnt spot nor smell any NTUC in the vicinity, jialat lol. Saw Edwin bro's OCS sword thingy. Damn cool can. Think they said they engrave your name on the sword or something. Maybe if i work hard in BMT in the first 3 months of NS i can GET NOMINATED for OCS then successfully graduate from the 9 months of torture with the funky sword. Discuessed some issues of ATC/STC then left for home. It was really a great experience spending time with the 15 HO/CI team-ers who were there man, people from various age groups gathering together, so funny somehow :P

Of course many other stuff happened, i mean, it IS 2 weeks right. But other than school, its pretty much gatherings with secondary school peeps. There you go, 3 chunks of juicy paragraphs from my life. Mmmmm, juicy lol. Or not :O

notes of a tragedy
10:55 PM

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

oh yeah MSA's over for now, heard there'll be like one more round next week la wth ._.

School's starting to get more boring than it already is. Apart from the occasional PE periods we have tchouking away the one to one and a half hour a week, school's really just a drag.

Tchoukball's real fun. After shaoan's intro to the game few weeks back before i started playing it for PE, i realised its more than just throwing the ball hard down onto the tramboline thingy. Its like about counterattacks and throwing the ball at various angles. Thats when physics comes in but argh, physics ): i still am talentless at physics somehow, just cant seem to understand why >:0 Anyway yeah, i think SA really really should start tchoukball real soon, cos they have one potential pro here who is all ready to join man hohoho >)

Actually the workload in school has really piled up, somehow i just can bring myself to complete all of the tutorials and stuff. I needa break after the tests man, the teachers actually know it but they just carry on the lectures and lectures without really bothering about us. Gaa i bet that happens in every school la.

Theres nothign really for me to blog, really. School's pretty much the same everyday. Meet the rest at 6.45, arrive at school, stone for 5mins for the assembly chime to go, lessons, last bell rings, chiong home. Like chiong la, dont like to stay outside somehow. Compared to last time, would normally laze around in school, play around in the classroom, walk the long way back home from school, those were the days when i was really free and well comparatively satisfied with life.

Dont want JC life to end though, i dont wanna go NS. Like seriously, waste of time la D: But other countries dont really have this NS system thingy, probably because they actually have youngsters who are really all so passionate about serving the nation with all their heart and soul but not Singaporeans, like me.

Friday's college day, where all the smart people would come back and receive prizes while people like me would just stone. Then theres also this learning festival thingy where we have 'to pick up a new skill' somehow. Like my class is teaching rollerblading and other classes are doing stuff like magic/ thai boxing. Waste of time la, another potential day to pon school. 2 parents letter, must make full use of it. Speaking of which, i can actually skip school every 2 tuesdays, cos i only have GP and chem and PE then i end at 1. Quite boliao actually, but normally the scheming school always has some academic planner thingy so i have to wait for 2 hours until 3 for the dumb lectures.

So long for now then. Oh yeah, and i learnt from my classmate to bring like prepared sandwiches to school, great idea you guys should try lol, though it makes you seem like some nerd >D

notes of a tragedy
9:59 PM

Sunday, August 09, 2009

Happy birthday Singapore!

Wanted to catch this year's national day parade on TV but went to NTUC with mum then continued doing work when i got home. So i only managed to catch Electrico's performance and the pledge taking thingy. Wonder if many Singaporeans really recited the pledge as a nation at 8.22 pm or somethin lol, but i definitely didnt :P

So the past week was sorta packed not with tests, maybe a little bit because of homework but definitely because of EOM ): Boo to PW, an even bigger boo to SA who started the subject if im not wrong.

Lets make a lil recap of near the end of the week. thursday my class celebrated the july/august babies birthdays and duh im one of them. So they got these candles which couldnt be blown out because of some physics behind it. Apparently once you blow out the candles, the sudden decrease in temperature (i suppose) caused the wire thingy in the candle to release a spark which lit the candle again. So since i didnt know, i kept blowing like some retard until my classmate like nudged me and told me, then i took out the candle from the mini mousse they had for each of us and stepped on it >( best way to remove fire is to remove oxygen!

So friday was my birthday woo >) But first, national day was really dumb la. only half my class came, the other half snoozing at home being the smarter one. If i didnt have the guitar J2 farewell thingy, or ORD if you wanna call it, i really wouldnt have gone to school. I rather wake up at the same time and head over to nanhua la. So we were given like 3 hours to make a dumb hamper. I spent like most of the time playing my friend's ipoddy. Then, of course we have the community singing thing which every school does. Know whats the best thing? We sang like so many songs, except this year's one. How amazing -.- then finally when we were dismissed i was sooooo happy that the terror was over. So it was guitar farewell, was so slack lol.During the meal time i was playing basketball while the rest of the J1s set up and prepare for the next activity. Then it ended at 4-5, was supposed the meet keelun but then it was too late, so i told him i'll meet him some other time.

So went for dinner at IMM with 404+cherngyew. was 1 hour late but i had reasons ok,but anyway chowler wasnt there yet anyway, so i wasnt the latest :) chatted with yonglak and meichia while waiting at the taxi stand for chowler and was kinda funny, discussing stuff like how fat chowler is now and more. Then when the zara shirt-clad guy stepped out from the cab they said he was buff. lol booo maybe i should train too,but im really too lazy to work out, last time i went gym cos i wanted to get silver for napfa, then somehow i got gold LOL. First time in like, ever. So anyway since the rest had eaten their full at ajisen already, yonglak chowz kjw and i headed to subway to get something fairly cheaper. Then as usual went over to the open-space area at the top to chill. Sang birthday song and cut-ed birthday cake, together with my fellow august-ian classmate kashin.

So as the rest took photos and interacted with one another, i was busy keeping myself away from being soiled by the chocolate cake on any part of my body.Slowly, our classmates shunpoed home as usual leaving only the few of us hanging around till 9, then yonglak kjw chowler sally and i decided to go pool at bukit timah.

So this kickstarts a new chapter of 'The many taxis' lol. At first we got into the taxi with 5 people, but after moving like 10m the uncle realised there're 5 people and insisted that we alight. Then we got rejected by many 4 seater taxis. So we decided to go for those big ones. The first time some couple ksed our large taxi, the second time we were too engrossed in conversation we let a taxi whiz past us ._. Then we finally got hailed for a bigger taxi, but apparently they charge $8 more for the 5th person.Bo hua lor. So decided to chill out at mac's instead. Sat down and chit chatted then left for home around 11.30. we were like playing at the escalator, cos it seemed kinda funny when you let yourself get lifted by the escalator when youre not on the escalator but on the 'outside' of the escalator lol.

So impromptu decision to head over to NJ to play tennis on saturday morning, partly because i wanna work those lazy muscles of mine since i havent been exercising much lately. Ran merely 2 continuous laps around the track with the sprint-jog-sprint-jog technique and i was about to collaspe already. Oh no, where did my 1 year ago 9min 46sec 2.4 timing go T.T So after resting a while then i continued on with another 2 laps. So was tennis. Me being a tennis noob since i've never played before got wooped by our fellow captain koh and his friend. Played from 8-12, bathed and chilled out in the empty canteen. And of all people guess who came just before we left! Jiahao came popping by from across the canteen, apparently he was back for council stuff. Then he brought some spraypaint for some painting thingy then we started playing around with it.NJ had some corner that was meant for all this doodling and needless to say, i left my mark in the NJ compounds :P oh ya, and we outsmarted the drink machine in some very old school bad boy method and i managed to get my 100 plus at 60c lol. Take that autobots and decepticons! So we played with spraypaint for like 2 hours, left around 2, headed over to golden rooster for lunch. Left for home and bathed again, saw some friends downstairs at the basketball court and went down to play, came home and bathed again lol. Now my whole arm is still aching from tennis 'training' lol.

Tennis's so fun, i wanna play again :D So that pretty much sums up the week, with the main events happening like only on the later part of the week. Next week's MSA 2, and i have test on tuesday,wednesday,thursday,friday.Wait, thats the whole week! and then i have chem test on the following monday. boooo. Recce on saturday, and night cycling probably on friday night, wonder if i can tahan or not o.o

*edit* man, how is it that it seems like only SA is having the second round of tests after the common tests ._.

notes of a tragedy
9:10 PM

Saturday, August 01, 2009

After a rather long time, ORD has finally come.

Prep and all werent really well done, ut if you take into account the limited amount of time they were given, ceteris paribus, it was actually a job well done. Or at least thats what the inexperienced me thinks.

So it was the usual speeches,plauque giving, video montages with the exception of having no funky performances due to H1N1 ~_~ H1N1 has really really screwed quite a lot of things up, i mean although we( or at least me) somehow hope to get quarantined, i still gotta admit it has definitely upset-ted my everyday life and schedules. So like a very very very small group of my squadmates came back, which was rather sad cos i got kjw to sms almost everyone. Bravo to those who came though, they got to enjoy free cater food.Chao smsed me around like 12 telling me he just woke up when he should be there at 8 ): Oh yeah, we almost didnt get to use the auditorium because the environmentalists club booked it or somethin but in the end we managed to utilise the auditorium, no idea what happened though. Everything else was cut short, no npcc pledge, no muster parade boooo. 3 hour ORD aint fun.

Sorta reminded me of my ORD, but i really gotta admit with Sunny/Edwin in saying that our squad, with greater emphasis on the guys, are really bloody camwhores >)Like we really went round to take pictures with everyone. TOs, HOs, juniors, seniors, whoever, we'll just pull him/her into the camera and start snapping. Good days good days. Somehow this wasnt that apparent in this sec4 squad, not even the girls seem to take a lot of pictures, or maybe i didnt really notice. hmmm.....

So Sunny/Edwin are ORDing or rather ORDed along with letts,stella and jieheng. To me, nhnp has definitely lost 2 especially important assets, Sunny was the type of CI who was really hard to find. Not because what he did, but because what he dares to do. Sunny was actually my sec1 IC, back then he wasnt that old and stuff, but he pretty much remained the same. You know, sunny wasnt really helping out in the hard skills part of the unit, he was really pushing on the soft skills part. Discipline, attitudem, etc etc. Best thing is he can realy switch between crazy freakomaniac to really serious/fierce/to-the-point and sensical/logical cadet inspector. This, I sincerely salute to you, CI Gan Jia Hao, aka sunny. Not many people call him sunny too, considering that its his secondary school nickname, i think im one of the only few who still insist on calling him with his nickname lol.

The next para would be really a thank you note to Edwin. Perhaps one of my most respected fellow CIs, he is really one damn imba hard and soft skills person. I remember i was teaching the sec3s orienteering during their nco course, edwin didnt even need to refer to any notes or whatsoever when it was his turn to take over. Like wth lol, i had to print notes for myself and stuff and somehow everything seemed to just pour out from his head O.O Hes a really good dude who really goes all out to improving the cadets and the unit on the whole, mind you, hes been with nhnp for like what, 9 years. Thats including his cadet/nco years, but even so thats like a hell of a long time man, considering that we're so young. So on behalf of nhnp, i think i can really say we thank you for all your contributions and all to the unit.

ORD really just means new blood taking over, hopefull the sec3s would be able to do a fine job in maintaining the unit's standard. Today was also my first event after being a CI since graduating on the 27th of june, then i was thinking, would i be able to make a change or at least provide the necessary assisstance of aiding the sec3s to bring the unit up to a gold. Sunny told me sometimes its time to be soft, sometimes its not, but somehow i just dont see myself scolding and yelling at cadets/ncos, i mean, i prefer to settle things the 'teach less, learn more' way, cos somehow i find it a rather effective method. I dont know what im afraid of though, putting a fierce front, or getting angry over the mistakes, is it becaus im afraid that i'll lose control? I really have to say its been long since i got angry, not pissed or sian-ned, and i dont really like the feeling of it. Its like not being me anymore la, but then again you dont have to be fierce to get stuff done, just have to be stern, like B.Lim lol.

Ah, so little things, so little time. STC, Milestone assessment tests 2 comin up, Project Work, and i still have to actually make time to practice the guitar pieces being practiced during the practice hours to compensate for the times i've skipped guitar for NP. :O Would i crumble into dust someday? Nah, though i got all this shit that i've gotta do, im sure everyone else is busy too. Check out amandaang, considering to take up a 6th cca. You go girl! o.o Boo to JC life, lucky its only 2 years. With all the work piling up, im wondering whether i can really afford to spend time to go down for campcraft com trainings in future man :S The trainings are like so intensive, like i remember mine was EVERYDAY after school. Damn tired but in the end we top 30 seh, dont play play.

Instead of saying FML like everyone else, I think i'll say that life is rather occupied-ful if theres such a word, but im sure it'll get better, hopefully. Or
maybe its just that i've been slacking so much thats why im so 'busy' Hmmm.....

notes of a tragedy
9:27 PM

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Happy Service Learning cum Racial Harmony Day.Since did my service learning on saturday already, i had a day off for the week and headed back to nanhua with some fellow saints and kjw cos it was NJ's college day too.

Headed back and visited many teachers, mdm poon, mdm yong, ms yvonne lim and lim pei shi etc etc. Since its racial harmony day, many teachers also dressed up in their traditional clothings thingy, like theres exceptionally more this year.Even mr teoh was in a malay costume! Unlike other teachers, he didnt change out of it after photo taking which was frigging cool. Maybe having a child would change everything in your life. Remember last time foo lao shi say when mr teoh first came into nanhua he didnt smile that much, then after he got married and had a kid, he began to smile more often. Coolio. And he still has that golden smile when he takes photos.

Played basketball pretty much of the time, sitting down to chat when im tired. Seeing the students have breaks in the canteen was kinda cool man. Nanhua has one of the funkiest canteen.Like seriously. E.g, the yongtaufoo stall is damn funny. It still gives so much noodles for the 五毛粗米粉. Ok i have no idea whether i wrote it correctly, but anyway they give so much noodles so much so i dont see how they can earn.And then theres also the famous western stall, where the name is nothing but a scam. It actully sells stuff like fan cai la, like la jiao yu, mushrooms cooked in a non-western way.Not that anyone's complaining, in fact, everyone loves it.

Left at like 3.30. Somehow i feel terrible after visiting nanhua. I dont know how i was arranging my thoughts and stuff, it somehow linked to how much stress i was creating for myself.Like im currently loathing tomorrow cos of guitar starting at like 5 and im dismissed at 1.30 like that? argh. Having left nanhua for 7 months, i still feel like i've left some stuff behind that i didnt manage to accomplish.Somehow. Results? Nah, cant be, i've got wonderful teachers who taught me in my last year and im really sure me getting 10-2 points was purely my fault for not clarifying things and stuff. Thats kinda a bit no link to my current link but somehow it all stacks up with all my other worries and piles up onto my emotions. I've made a lot of wrong decisions in my life, some i've definitely regretted, some i just cant seem to understand and others just, i dont know, left some kind of imprint on me displaced from any of the categories.

I've made a lot of major decisions too, risking common tests for cibtc, running for guitar exco and failing it, restraining myself from getting too close to the people in SA. Even so, going for CIBTC, i've actually given up many othert things, not just the time i needed to dedicate to the course.Sure, i met many awesome people from all areas and stuff, but i think i threw away many other possible/impossible oppurtunities. I took up treasurer at the start of the year too, voluntarily, knowing that somehow i wasnt really a person who could do admin stuff well. Ah, im afraid that i cant take the self-created stress man, though im fully aware that all these stuff is created by myself.

Oh gosh, save me. Rescue me.

notes of a tragedy
4:49 PM

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Its been a tiring week as usual, i mean i know im not the only one going through the whole motion instead of the process of school, like since everyone entered JC, most people i know more or less dread school

So i got back my results, which is ok, but i sorta feel discouraged cos i really thought i could do better. So far i got back everything except econs and got a DDEB. i mean if some miracle happens and my econs gets an A, i dont think it would make any difference either, cos the 3 H2 subjects are like terrible man. At first my E physics was a C, but after standardisation, it dropped 2 grades. Note, its standardisation, not moderation, means they rework and revise their marking schemes because of discrepancies here and there, then they just kill everyone of regardless whether or not your marks are high or low. Most of the time, no one's marks will get increased ): then for chem was one mark to a C and for math is half mark to a C. kinda sad though. CCEB would definitely be much nicer. But then again, drastic improvement for GP, or maybe the marker this time wasnt that strict so i got a B instead of a U again. Top in class too wooo lol, never top in class for anything before lol. so in all, results dropped from AASUA to DDEB and one more subject. boo to that ):

Service learning was today and sorta interacted with the kids from carecorner. i was attached to 2 kids who were cousins both of whom where malays. Both of them are really guai and quiet and they're secretly good in sports too. Like the sports games segment they sorta excelled as compared to other kids. it was a fun experience handling the kids, babysitting them for one day. Then after lunch i thought everyone would be drowzy and such, but instead all of them started running around the fitness corner treating everything there like a game station, even the feared pull-up bars. ok, once feared, not anymore (: but yeah, they're full of youth and errr vigour, real suitable word. then was water games, and somehow i got wet even when i tried to avoid contact with the water. boo to that. then played like floorball and touch rug with the kids, and i think my class is like gonna spam either one of those 2 games for PE from now on. Oh well, think its rather ok, perhaps basketball would be better >) oh yeah and i started this revolution of something really interesting. Because everyone has thrown their water bombs and all, then i havent threw mine, there was this kid begging me for my water bomb. so i gave it to him and asked him to do me a favour. At first i wanted him to throw it at one of my classmates, but one of my other classmates gave me a good idea and the whole class joined in the psycho to get him to throw the bomb at my form teacher. And then my form teacher who doesnt look like very sporty and those gentle gentle kind sprinted of immediately, amazingly lol.oh yeah and from the start, my 2 buddies had problems remembering my name, somehow 'Bryan' was a difficult word to pronounce/remember o.o So i asked them to give me a name and the boy called me 'Bigger'. Ok at least it sounds like bigger, it cant be 'Bugger' right. But yeah, the name was like er, cute.

After that joined like half of the squad to welcome tyt back after like 1 or 2 weeks and when she is going off tomorrow -.- oh well. anyway CCA activities can be resumed! yeah manzz woo. But i have no idea why i still have guitar when theres not supposed to be CCAs ._. and oh yeah , i found back my file too wooooo! it was put into the inno room when i left it outside last week, so its like since guitar practice in the inno room only resumed yesterday, i just found it yesterday. But then again, i lost my spec hooks somehow because i took it out when i was sleeping. Oh man, im always losing stuff.

Its been long since i read a book properly, like the whole book and i think i should get one soon to improve my vocab and stuff. Any reccommendations?

notes of a tragedy
10:37 PM

Friday, July 10, 2009

Ah, todays such a long day.

I got dismissed at 12.30 cos my classmates requested to shift my last period of physics earlier. So i had to stone/do my homework for 3 and a half hours until 4 for guitar. Sadly nanhua still hasnt implemented back cca i think, so i had no choice but to go for guitar. at least i didnt get niao like siao by the conductor, and i really learnt a lot from todays practice with jack on my left and timotheus on my right. Seriously man, i'll die without these 2 nanhua buddies in guitar ensemble.

Today marks the day where i lost something important to me. Nah not like what you're thinking lol. I lost my file which has stuck through thick and this, dirt and clean, rain or shine, peitongprimary or nanhuasecondary or 1sthalfofsajc with me. It wasnt just a file yo, i mean of course the stuff inside were important la, like my EOM article (inside zomgwtfbbqsibeisiandiao emoticon here), my only piano score, my only piano notes jingyew wrote for me in sec2. still got some other childish stuff. Like when i was playing neopets from way back, not that i stopped playing, but anyway when i was a maniac back that, i printed out like quite a lot of petpets and filed it into this blue file ): so yeah all my so called memories were gone like 'poof'. Sadded. But theres one thing cibtc taught me, its that to just look ahead despite setbacks, ok maybe you dont consider it as one, but you get my idea. gaaa ): The file was actually first bought as a choir file you know, where i get to file in all my scoresheets and stuff, but i slowly used it for almost everything because i was too lazy to buy a new one. 7 years ):

Oh yeah and the guitar resume was inside too ._. After i finally decided to take up yet another shot at leadership, my so called template was lost. wapiang, super suay day.

haizpo. Time to get a new file man. Lets see how long this file can last me.

I fought to the limit to stand on the edge
What if today is as good it gets?
Don't know where the future's headed
But nothing's gonna bring me down

notes of a tragedy
10:53 PM

Monday, July 06, 2009

Alrighty, term with new timetable starts tomorrow!

Past week after the June holidays have been filled with common tests, hopefully i'll be able to get 35< rank points so as to obtain a pass for this common tests. But for gp, i'll prefer a B or C cos well, i dont really like it when my english-related subjects gets low grades. ok maybe im asking for too much but just dont fail on me man gp, placing lotsa faith on the subject cos its like important for uni criteria or so i think.Then for the rest of the subjects, sigh man.BIG SIGH. i only managed to complete econs, which is rather ironic since econ is the subject where you have to scribble crazily. This could also mean a bad thing, that i had too little to write for econs to the extent that i could finish in time ):

Enough about common tests, i've been busy with my june holiday homework too. 12 newspaper articles and i havent started on EOM/journal. At least im done with 7 articles, hopefully i'll be able to finish the remaining 5 by this week as promised to my GP teacher.

The real term 3 starts tomorrow, and soon term 4 would be over and the A levels would be nothing but the past. Lets just get it done and over with man, seriously. The days are ahead are gonna get hectic with more and more workload, especially from PW. I gotta do weekend revision too, like last minute studying like what i did for common tests would not work, not that i had a choice anyway. I've sorta put down my hopes of trying to take up H3 physics, though i've got the interest for it, but i definitely cant qualify for it or take up the extra stress, i think. Kinda reminds me that it sucks to be in SA cos it doesnt offer the English Elective programme or some sort. Friends have told me its hard and all but i think im willing to put in the extra effort in something im interested in, as compared to boring econs.

On a sidenote, H1N1 is starting to piss me off too.i think all ccas in all schools have been banned? Means no guitar (yay, i suddenly dread guitar btw), but that also means no NP. argh. Then its like this friday is supposed to be college day but because of H1N1, they cancelled it and changed it to a normal school day cos the activities planned for college day is considered as a 'mass gathering'. And ATC's coming too, im so not gonna miss my first ATC as an instructor man. Its like a whole new experience, something i'll like to try. agrhhhhh.

Dinner with small group of sec4 friends at queestown area there, around RV. Some indian/thai food which costs a nuclear bomb. But it was a good experience though, love gatherings with old friends <3

Oh my god, thats so gay lol.

notes of a tragedy
10:03 PM

Sunday, June 28, 2009

After 3 weeks, its all over.

I must say the 3 weeks have really been filled with ups and downs, and well the cibtc isnt as tough and all as you think after you go through the course and do some reflection. In fact, it has been almost entirely filled with fun, because of the crazy squadmates and funny ATC group mates.

I went for the 4d3n ATC last monday to thursday and it was rather a different experience as compared to the normal ATC in sec2 and sec3. Its like i got to go to the highest point on pulau ubin to see the scenery after climbing 74m without any proper roads or tracks. Maybe can show you guys that place some day cos its like damn cool. Rations have also been upgraded, maybe because i was a CIT or maybe even the cadet rations have been changed. There are like 4 different menus to choose from, and each menu has like damn awesome food as compared to my time's canned food and stuff. There was like black sesame glutinous rice, chicken pasta, honey barley dessert, burmese curry chicken noodle. Like woah, now even the new generation gets better ration food.Then the last day was rather slack, cos they wanted to celebrate the end of course and stuff.

2 days after i came back from ubin was investiture, which was yesterday. Reported at 10 and had dry runs until around 3, of course inclusive of lunch.Then it was squad sharing/preparing of uniform and then at 5.45 the investiture started. Pretty cool cos its like MY first investiture.After the cert taking and the npcc pledge taking, of course it was wild photo taking session, but i didnt take as much as during grad night la, just take some that are enough to remember my squadmates and my ATC groupmates. Wont bother to upload the rest of the pics, too lazy to anyway. Was dismissed at 10, apparently i have some squadmates who stay at tampines/pasir ris. Good luck to them man.

On a side note, i received my corparate tee and my CI polo too. What really pisses me off is that only my squad has a shortage of shirts and the rest of the batch Alpha and Bravo squads have sufficient shirts. So i only have one of the CI polo >:0 then my corporate tee is like different from other people one, cos its NPCC's 50th anniversary, then got this big big '50' pattern thingy on it. Not sure whether its nice or ugly, but its not like i have a choice anyway ):

School reopens tomorrow and the common tests are starting. Luckily, i dont take bio so i have one more day to study. Hopefully it'll be of use.

oh yeah i nearly forgot, i wanna thank mr chew for being a really really really awesome TO. At first he was coming to my investiture to help me put on my rank, but then because mrs lee didnt manage to submit the officers attendance list in time, he couldnt attend and i didnt have any extra tickets for guests other than officers. Furthermore mr chew needed to draw the no.5T uniform from hta to attend the investiture as an officer and he only managaed to find out about this on friday. So mr chew actually offered to meet up after the investiture to honour my rank and all, which well really shows how much he cares man. Mr chew ftw!!! Sadly, hes gonna leave this year D: or at least i think so.

notes of a tragedy
11:06 AM

Friday, June 19, 2009

Wooo i cant believe that my RC2 is over. Its been 9 days of training since last week, and wowzers its really been an experience.

tough as it is, i really learnt a lot man. Not just the hard skills, but more to the soft skills part. Like it trains my interaction skills, from my mini antisocial character to like interactive leader :D. Really la, the course was tough, but i cant elaborate everything, cos its really too many stuffs already. Its 9 days of training mind you, and each day when i wake up its different.

Sure, waking up at 4.25 to polish boots everyday and sleeping at 11 every night may sound seemingly insane, but it just takes time to get used to it. Independent living is kinda interesting you know, maybe some of y'all should try it someday.

Maybe i'll talk about it more afte my common tests if i can still remember, cos i really cant find time to do long long posts like before when i was still in secondary school ):

Ah, nanhua. Hopefully i'll get posted back into nanhua, really scared cos this time its going to be a new sorting system for the posting of CIs to schools. Ah well, hope that the heavens are watching over me and stop playing tricks on me >.<

4 MORE DAYS OF ATC LETS GOGOGOGOGOGOGGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGO although it'll definitely be tough, as always :X

notes of a tragedy
10:41 PM

Monday, June 08, 2009

Ah, miss those days.

The picture was taken last year, and boy its more than 1 year old already. I remember it was taken on our last parade. Made a lot of effort to call back every single one of my squadmates just to get them back for a perfect finish to my npcc life as an NCO, or cadet leader as they call it now.Like check it out man, theres like 30+ people in the photo man, and my squad's strength is like always less than 20. Our last parade was also a mini amazing race, and i only attended the parade after it started as i had some lessons if i remember correctly.

Good times aside, im leaving for cibtc on wednesday. Not exactly leaving, but i'll be so busy that it'll be as if im overseas. Feel free to call me up at night around 10, would be more than happy to entertain calls lol, at least it keeps me moving on in the ardours course. I really made effort in preparing all the stuffz man, hopefull the CIIs would be able to see that i made an effort doing so -.- Most of the times the CIIs are really damn jiao, but im sure its just their duties that covers up their true selves. They're just teens like us man, just that higher rank :(

So i'll be back on saturday night, anyone wanna have dinner? lol. I realised im starting to sound damn despo for interaction with the world outside the course. Ah i cant believed im actually scared man, i mean i've never really been scared of most stuffs, like seriously scared lol. Like check out how much i enjoyed sec3 ATC 2 years ago. Ok, inside joke, but this is serious manzxz. D:

On a sidenote, promo test was on saturday. Read some of my juniors blog, found their posts all damn cute lol. Like going to fail this going to fail that. Back in my days i was like HAHA HOW TO FAIL ONE. ok maybe i was too cocky back then but normally i wont worry about all these until muster parade comes, where my heart really pumps. I know how it feels like to be on the parade square, anxiously anticipating for your name to be called. Been there, done that.

If theres too much NP stuff for you to handle, its perhaps its because im trying to find the reason why im going for the course. The other day during uniform collection the CII said it'll help but apparently its not ):

Lalalala, i didnt do many things that i actually planned for the holidays. sighz :O

notes of a tragedy
9:39 PM

Friday, June 05, 2009

Its said 'No one is here by chance', or at least thats what they drill into us.

But i found this quote on the internet, 'In this world nothing occures by chance, there only exist inevitability'.

Which applies to you?

notes of a tragedy
9:05 PM

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

Uniform Collection is over!

Like phew man, i was totally totally anticipating myself to face lotsa scoldings, but wala, i made out of HTA alive.It wasnt as hiong as nich and ying's time though, where i recall nich was telling me how he got scolded for counting the corporate tee and stuff for whatever reason. So yeah, it wasnt as jialat as i thought it would be, but perhaps its just a warm up.

I reached the everest room LATE, which is one of the last things you wanna do during CIBTC, then we got scolded for not reading the instructions on the board then blah blah blah. Lecture on uniform ettiquette and then finally went on to collect uniforms. I was saved from the new set of square buttons but i wasnt spared from the new badge thingy on the picap. I got the npcc one instead of the old Singapore crest one, which sucks ): and i got a feeling after i graduate from the course my CI RANK would have the NPCC word at the edge, so cadet like.argh.

So collected uniform and stuff then went on to lecture on the course. So i got my dates, 10-13 would be my first residential course, next would be 15-19, then 22-25 would be ATC and the 27th would be the investiture. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY. First time i'll be taking part in an investiture, always see council and student leaders investiture and never really got to take part in one ):For the rest of the days, feel free to jio me out, anyone, and if im not weighed down by lesson plans and stuff or my tiredness i''ll try my best to hangout with y'all.

After that was dismissal, it felt really weird being in a squad and doing all the drills in a squad after 6 months.And i gotta admit, i wasnt qutie used to being scolded and all by superiors after such a loooong time man. But its a fresh start, starting from zero all over again.Hopefully, risking my common tests would be worth it.Somehow.

So mini day 1, is over, if i just add up all the days from the 10th to the 27th, i've got 18 more days to go. If you people thought it was 17th, you should go revise on your summation of series where the number of terms would usually be (n+1) teehee.Anyway, theres this CII who really really really looks like joanna.like REALLY. no kidding man. maybe thats her in the future, like who knows, right? hohoho.

notes of a tragedy
8:56 PM